What About Now?
For some reason we spend too much time trying to avoid what is happening right now by thinking forward or backwards. We remember the "good old days" when our struggles were different.
Looking back makes us forget how difficult our struggles were when they were our present moment and how we desperately tried to avoid them by looking forward and backwards just like we do now. We avoid painful experiences by lying to ourselves saying things like, "it's going to be okay" or saying other things as if we are predicting the future or our outcome to this experience we are having right now.
Yes, you may very well be alright but then again you may not. If by chance you won't be alright, how are you going to justify your return to this matter to yourself? You can't. Avoiding your now is like signing a contract saying you will return to this matter every time it comes up if your wishful thinking does not work. That hurts more than dealing with it in the present moment. At least it does for me.
Life becomes more difficult when I avoid my present moment for good memories that used to be unpleasant in their present state or sell myself a dream of a future that I am not promised. All I have is now and if I, right now, have the experience that has presented itself to me, I may have a better future because I will have received the gift life wanted to give me that was necessary for my pending experience whether it's immediately after or some where down the road.
Now...right now...in this very moment...is the only guarantee that we have in life. Enjoy it or don't :-) but have the experience, you will be glad you did.
