As I break ground, I wonder what life will be like for me. Up until now, I've only imagined what life would be like above ground. See my seed went deep into the earth, down into the darkness, where I sat, waiting, all alone. I had to love my self, push my self, encourage my self and I had to learn to be comfortable being my self. And I had to be comfortable being my self regardless of people and what they thought of me and how they would respond to me not knowing who I am and after we knew what I would grow up to be.
I don't know for sure what I am, because I haven't broke ground. I know I am growing and changing and making my way toward the light. I feel it and it makes me happy in my deepest places. It's a happiness I have never experienced before and I must say that I like it. Its not easy being a seed, especially when all that I truly am, breaks through what I was and destroys everything I've ever known to be. The growth hurts, the process is lonely (even when there are people around) and life is confusing. I knew I was going to be something wonderful but I just didn't know what. I didn't know how to answer the people who wanted to know what I was so I made stuff up.
No more. Because as the ground breaks and I increase in size and strength, my position changes from underground to aboveground every one, including myself will know what I am. My bud will speak for itself and so will my blossom. The plunge, the death and the rebirth will all be worth it. I promise.
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